Wednesday, January 19, 2011

And The Race Is On

It's a new day, it's a new life. I've been in hibernation for a long time, and now I am awake. Really! I'm not kidding, people. If only I had about fifty more years to live, but that would make me 114 years old, so I have a feeling that's not going to work. So I've got to work really fast to get everything done. I'm not good at sitting, but sometimes it's not so bad just to sit and look around and see the things that you don't notice everyday. Like there are acorns all over my yard - I'm thinking I must have the happiest squirrels in the world. I like to crunch them as I walk to the mailbox. The acorns, I mean. Of course not the squirrels, I like them and my cat likes them.

And have you ever been driving and you pass over those places in the road that make the click click noise. I love that. It reminds me of when I was young and we were traveling to Clarksdale to see my Mamaw Burns. And my brother and I would count between each click all the way.

I like to sit and watch the birds in my yard. This picture was taken from inside through the screen. I kind of like the effect. But isn't that bird so pretty? We feed the birds and in the summer the hummingbirds are just crazy.

Do you know how fun it is to sit back and watch your grandchildren? As new people, they have so much to learn from this earth, don't you think? How great it would be to be like those children again and see a bird for the very first time, to step on an acorn and hear the crunch, to listen to the clicks driving down the highway and to have heard that for the first time in your life, to see the sun, the rain, all for the very first time! I remember the first time I took my first child outside and she had never walked on grass before. She just kept looking at that grass and raising her little feet way up, like wow, what is this, it feels so good. (That's the little girl over to the right)

So I plan on doing all of that for the rest of my life. Listen to the clicks in the road, watch the birds and squirrels and do all of this as if it was my very first time. So......THE RACE IS ON!!!!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011

A New Year, A New Me

Well, I don't know how new I'm going to be, but I'm going to try to do some things differently. Like, I procrastinate a lot. I'm going to try to NOT do that so much. I'll start tomorrow. I would like to be a better person, a better resident of the earth, a better parent to my adult children. I really would like to be remembered someday as a pretty good grandparent, one who cared and shared.

These are not really hard things to do, but still it's time for me to do it. I've wanted for such a long time to do something for others, and I realize my time on earth is getting shorter with each passing day. I believe I know what I'll do, but I'll keep it to myself. I think the best things we do for others should not be announced like it's some great accomplishment. What we do for others should be done because, well, because it's just the right thing to do.

It snowed in Mississippi in January this year. I can not remember the last time it snowed like that. The world is changing and so are we all. Let's all change for the better. If each person just spoke one kind word a day to some other person, just think how many kind words would be spoken across this planet. Kind words are like treasures, they are to be cherished and shared.

I lost a lot of important people last year. It wasn't my favorite year, but not my worst. My brother was killed in March, I lost two aunts, one uncle. I lost a neighbor of 20 years, such a fine man. I lost a childhood friend in April. I suppose it's a sign for me - I'm getting older, and so are all the people I know. If we live long enough, we get older, it's just the way it is, no way around it.

My son, who I've spoken of in previous posts, now is in a long-term care living facility. He left one week ago today. Now, that was hard for this entire family. But I had to put my selfish side away and do what was best for him. Now, he is playing cards, dominoes, bingo. I'm proud of my son, and I wish he was the son I used to have. He's not, and I've accepted it. Doesn't mean I like it, and I wish this path that was chosen for me was different. I can not change that, so I will keep on the path and do the best I can.

Life is not always easy, but if we keep fighting the good fight, in the end, we will win. I will win, with God leading me down this path. Do I question why my son? Yes, I do. But, then, why anyone's son or daughter? We were given free will long ago, and because of that, bad things happen to good people. We do not always choose our path, sometimes it is chosen for us, and if that happens, we must remain on the path and steadfast, though the path gets rough and bumpy. At those times, God carries me.