Well, I don't know how new I'm going to be, but I'm going to try to do some things differently. Like, I procrastinate a lot. I'm going to try to NOT do that so much. I'll start tomorrow. I would like to be a better person, a better resident of the earth, a better parent to my adult children. I really would like to be remembered someday as a pretty good grandparent, one who cared and shared.
These are not really hard things to do, but still it's time for me to do it. I've wanted for such a long time to do something for others, and I realize my time on earth is getting shorter with each passing day. I believe I know what I'll do, but I'll keep it to myself. I think the best things we do for others should not be announced like it's some great accomplishment. What we do for others should be done because, well, because it's just the right thing to do.
I lost a lot of important people last year. It wasn't my favorite year, but not my worst. My brother was killed in March, I lost two aunts, one uncle. I lost a neighbor of 20 years, such a fine man. I lost a childhood friend in April. I suppose it's a sign for me - I'm getting older, and so are all the people I know. If we live long enough, we get older, it's just the way it is, no way around it.
Life is not always easy, but if we keep fighting the good fight, in the end, we will win. I will win, with God leading me down this path. Do I question why my son? Yes, I do. But, then, why anyone's son or daughter? We were given free will long ago, and because of that, bad things happen to good people. We do not always choose our path, sometimes it is chosen for us, and if that happens, we must remain on the path and steadfast, though the path gets rough and bumpy. At those times, God carries me.